Me? Crazy Ideas? Nooooo....

(Photo from: The Lettered Cottage)

I stumbled upon a "new to me" blog today and came across an image that made me stop in my tracks, open up my very own fresh new blog and think about what it really means to me.

When someone gives me a compliment, I immediately begin listing my flaws or drawing attention to where I have come up short rather than simply appreciating that someone actually thinks I've done well in some regard (from dressing myself in a cute outfit, decorating my home nicely, making a nice piece of art, etc.). I feel like I'm saying the equivalent of, "this old thing?" every time someone says something nice to me. Unfortunately, my ideas suffer a fate similar to compliments bestowed upon me. When I have an idea that lingers in my brain, getting all yummy and delicious, I always stop myself and assume it's probably crazy, leaving that idea to go live with all the other "probably crazy" thoughts I've ever had.

So when I saw this image, I pictured myself telling friends and family about starting Senn & Sons and downplaying how much it means to me to be doing something I have always dreamed of doing. Saying to them, it's just a crazy little thing I'm going to try out, it's really nothing. But I'm sick of drawing attention to the things I don't have figured out (in this case, it's a pretty long list), and this time around I'm going to tell people about what I DO have figured out. No one needs to know there's a massive list of things that need to be sorted. They need to know that I'm doing something that makes me happy. And if that thing that makes me happy makes other people happy too - well, that's pure success in my mind.

I don't know if what I'm doing is going to become anything more than a small Etsy shop filled with paintings, nor do I know if I want it to be anything more than that. What I do know is that it feels good to be doing something. And that I just need to trust my crazy ideas sometimes. Or all the time. We'll see how that works out.